Gotta back things up a little bit. I was notified on June 4 that I had a cancerous element in a swollen lymph node in my neck. The lymph node had been growing for six months or more. I’d see it in the mirror while shaving or brushing my teeth. Back to the music room I’d go and forget about the lump. It didn’t hurt so I’d go until the next time I shaved or looked in the mirror for a while. Then my wife saw it!!!
A trip to the local doctor, an ultrasound, and three trips the Ear, Nose, and Throat specialist later and I find out about the cancer. He shares that the lymph node shows signs of cancer, but it is not the source; also that I am scheduled for pre-op labs and Xrays, a PET scan, and that his office is setting up a date for surgery the following week.
Life changes the moment we get some new piece of information: happened to me that Tuesday. I sent an email to Wendy at work to let her know as I making my way to the hospital. I navigate my way around this hospital I know nothing about. Everyone is helpful, but my Wendy is not there with me. Why didn’t Wendy go?
I went to the appointment alone cuz I did not know what the doctor knew. For me… no news is good news. The glass is full until I am convinced that it is something otherwise. The doc even asked wife why my wife wasn’t with me. I made my perspective known. He wasn’t impressed. “Like, you didn’t even suspect something serious could be wrong?” I mentioned that I try not to speculate on what could be… that could drive a person bonkers and I did not want that.
My Wendy and I went to the PET scan the following Saturday, June 8th. The Tuesday after that we were chatting with the oncologist in our hometown. We were there for about two hours. A lot of time was spent with the nurse. He was very good and knew the system he works in. He mentioned the results of the PET scan were not available as of yet. The oncologist joined us a little later with the PET scan results. This is where the mixed feelings kick in.
She says the scan did not indicate the source of the cancer. So there’s some rogue cancer thingy floating around in my neck, and no one can say where the source is hiding. So… it is good to know that it has not taken over part of my body yet, which is good. Equally, we do not know anything conclusive. Again, no news is good news. Things will be good when all is said and done cuz there is no information to the contrary.